Hadif 2 months years old. Banyak ceritera suke duka semasa dia still in my tummy. Over due...last moment doc bg tau my baby is boy. So happy...senyum sampai ke telinga. Before tat i guees my baby still girl. Coz bile wat scan dia malu tk nk bg tengok.
2 Januari 2008 my hero born. Now my boy 4 years old. Time goes very fast. Terasa usia ku jua semakin tua...hehehe...tua ke aku ni? angka tk memberi ape2 makna buat ku...but...one think...pengalaman mendewasakan kita. Aku menjadi lebih kuat dan tabah bila banyak dugaan yang ku lalui. Hati ku jua semakin keras. Kadang2 terasa terlalu lelah menghadapi ujian dunia. Yang pasti setiap yang datang ada hikmah dari Nya. Jatuh tersungkur dan bangun semula adalah lumrah hidup. Tak semestinye hidup yang dilalui manis selalu. Pasti ade pahit diantaranye. Barulah hidup berwarna-warni. Kadang2 jangan terlalu mengharap sesuatu diluar kemampuan diri. Bimbang andai jatuh tak mampu untuk bangun semula. Sepayah mane pun kaki harus melangkah jangan sesekali menyalahkan takdir. Redha dan terus berusaha adalah jalan yang sebaiknye.
18 Oktober 2012 it's a big day for my hero. Concert Day....time for my hero to show his talent. I'm so proud of him coz he try his best to sings a medley of songs and try to dance. I know hadif happy coz his sisters come over to see his dancing. On the way back home....i heard them talking about the concert. Qistina said...hadif u do a good job today. Nnt kakak nak tengok lagi hadif dancing masa 5 dengan 6 tahun. Mantapla hadif dancing...
This is a first year for my hero go to school. He learn so many things. He knows his responsibilty as a student. Went his came back from the school, he knows he got homework to do n he must read his reading book 'PETER AND JANE'.
Year end open day....Hadif told my husband...papa esok ade open day sekolah abang...so my husband asking me...what time the open day is over? i said, around 12 afternoon.The next day i didn't bring him to school. I told his teacher Hadif father may be will come to see his progress. until 12 o'clock my husband didn't come coz he has work to do. Went i'm come back from the school i didn't tell him about tat.
Last day is a party day...everybody will come n bring some junk foods n syer with everyone. Went he sees his teacher he asked his teacher about open day....papa abang datangkan teacher? So...the teacher asking me how to answer his question. To be a safe i asked the teacher to lie...i feel so sad n guilty.
I told my husband tis story.....i said to him 'tu la abang...lain kali jgn buat camni,kesian dia kecik lagi'
I know my husband also feel so guilty. But it's over...